Mr. X Stitch

It was posted today!  See the Stitchgasm on Facebook.  (I'm not sure where it is on the main site, so I have to link you to it on Facebook.)  I'm pretty excited and happy, etc etc etc and to be honest, having this happen and my first Etsy sale in one week is exactly what I needed.  I've been having a hard time keeping my spirits up and got all doom and gloom.  It's good to be reminded that there are good things going on too.

So!  If you are a crafter or looking to start, check out Mr. X Stitch blog about the 1st birthday of the Mr. X Stitch site.  They are having giveaways and other fun things.  Good stuff!  Check 'em out and start subscribing!

Craft-a-frickin-roonie!

Here is my little recap for the last week or so:

Last week was hell as far as health goes but this is a new week!  I was a shit-load of pain from endo and arthritis last week but thankfully, these things aren't an everyday problem for me.  Shit could always be worse!

Ma Burley came on Friday night and we chilled out together on Saturday and went to the Harrah's casino Saturday night.  What a culture shock!  I did see plenty of casinos in Vegas but it just seemed different because it was here in KC.  I lost $50 in the slots which sucked and the drinks were $5, not free like Vegas.  Casinos are fun for a few hours but after that, I've had my fill.  It's loud, reeks of smoke and there are people EVERYWHERE.  Not a great place for recluses like myself.  Her visit was too quick but it was really great to see her again.

My Etsy hasn't sold anything yet however I think I have a few interested in "Ass, the other Vagina."  I have a couple private requests also that I need to get started on.  I'm excited about that because it's fun to make these but even more fun to know that people are going to put it in their homes soon.  As soon as payday gets here, I am off to the crafy store again to get supplies.  I'm geeked!

Speaking of stitchery, I finished my first photo-to-embroidery project.  Here is the result and a comparison of the original photo to the cloth and thread result:





I felt pretty good about the overall end-product.  This has been a complete learning experience for me and I see what I need to work on now.  I have ideas for the next embroidery project already!  I like the idea of taking my photography and doing something more with it.  My ultimate goal is to get a gallery show.  I think I'm on my way as *enter drumroll* I'm going to be featured in the near future on Stitchgasm.  ACK!!!!  This is exciting to me although most of you probably don't know what the fuck I'm talking about.  See the following website: http://www.mrxstitch.com/  I am not sure what day it will be, but one of the people who works on this newsletter is a woman known as Beefrank.  She is a witty, creative genius and her work makes me laugh a lot!  You can see her work on Flickr by going to http://www.flickr.com/photos/beefranck/.  If you appreciate humor, talent and witicisms, please check out her stuff!  Also, subscribe to Mr. X Stitch via the site or Facebook.  (He is also megacool and a Brit!)  This stuff absolutely feeds me inspiration as well as making me laugh.  I can't believe how creative people can be and it is freakin' awesome to see so many talented people out there producing so much stuff.  Ok sorry, I got a little carried away!!

Add that to a confirmation email I received about enrollment in a free digital photography course and I'm about to implode!  Whoopee!

All right, enough of that crazy shit.  As always, I hope everyone is well.  Catch ya later, tschus!

If I sold my drugs, I’d be rich!

Yay, another prescription for a controlled substance.  Hopefully I won't need it long; just until I can wean off the Cymbalta fully.  God, I hope this works.  I'm tired of feeling like my brain is going through a meat grinder.  So that makes it three controlled substances I'm on.  Wow.  And yet I somehow manage to still get to work most days of the week.  That's a little fucked up, isn't it?

Speaking of meat, I am off red meat now, including pork.  And for some reason I can only seem to eat fish when it is raw.  Fresh sushi doesn't taste like the bottom of a cesspool.  Yet cooked fish does.  Wtf?  It just grosses me out.  Plus it feels like my tastes have changed lately.  No, not pregnant...trust me.  I did read, however, that changing one's diet can help with certain health issues I have.  So getting rid of red meat might help.  I also need to get rid of alcohol, carbonated beverages, fatty foods and anything else you can think of that is good tasting and bad for you.  Damnit.  I'm working on it though.  Doesn't help that I do this with the scary Estrogen Monster looming over me.

By the way, I googled "Estrogen Monster" and came up with this image:



That made me giggle a lot.  Ha!  There's nothing like a pissed off Muppet.

That takes me to another image I saw years ago and this also is a good one:



However I've never seen this one before:



Ok one more...just because I like it:



What else....Rowdy gave us a little scare.  We went to the lake and did our cabin thing for a night.  We came home early because we all felt like shit: back ache, sunburn, tired and sore.  Rowdy had too much activity and we thought he was a goner.  Thankfully he is on some good drugs (more addicts in the family!) and will be ok.  He's just an old dog and can only take so much.  It didn't help that last weekend was hellishly hot and humid.  Here are some lake shots:









The boat we rented was a little fishing boat which was fine until we came back against the tide.  Every ripple we hit was like hitting a cement curb.  We all got jarred quite a bit.  But it was cheap and fun.  The water felt great and didn't stink of algae like I remember Patterson Lake smelling.

It was good to get away and even better to come back to our own creature comforts, like a pillow top mattress.  I wish I had the fortune of some of those other people we saw over the weekend who were hauling swanky RVs and big-ass boats.  But we had a nice time anyway, even as short as it was.  I'm having a hard time getting into work this week but before I know it, the week will be over.  Thank God.

I think my mind has strayed enough for the time being.  Everyone is pretty silent these days...are you all on vacation?  Bored of the blog?  Sick?  Busy?  In a coma and having an out-of-body experience?  Hehee, whatever it is, I hope you are all well.  I hope to have better blogs in the near future.  It's just so damn hard to concentrate these days!



Tschus.

Craftism

General brain befuddlement has prevented any new creativity as of late.  I did however crank out a couple of things about a week or so ago:





I have a set of Hitchcock stamps that I collected years ago that I want to frame.  That is what inspired the Hitchcock piece.  The Super Bitch came from a book of cutsey patterns I bought.  I also happened to find small frames at Wally World and this was an experimentation with small designs.  I'd really like to put it at my desk at work but don't think it would be wise.

Lately I've been looking at embroidery and wanted to try it.  Again I'm lost as to what to stitch.  However I woke up last night with an idea and spent the day looking at the internet for tutorials on how to make the images in my brain come to the fabric.  There are a few photographs I've snapped over the years that I really like and I've decided to make embroidery patterns out of them.  Thankfully there are people out there in the crafty world who blog and make how-to videos for the internet.  Here is part of the pattern I put together:



I'm afraid that I might start filling up the spare room with projects so I put up an Etsy store finally in the hopes of getting rid of some of them.  You can find the store here:  www.ndbex.etsy.com.  So far I haven't sold anything but there is still hope in me to get rid of some things.  I made them pretty cheap!

Double dosing with the new drug and the Cymbalta is still a hellacious experience.  I was laid up in front of my computer all day because of it.  I hope I can get this out of my system soon.  In order to get away from all the stress, Ron and I booked a cabin for the weekend down by Stockton Lake.  It's only a couple hours away, we can take the dogs and we've been there before.  If we can afford it, we might rent a pontoon and spend Saturday morning tooling around the lake.  We badly need to get out of town and have some fun.  I'm so excited to go!

That's my exciting life this week.  Tschus!!

Last night’s Ambien-ism

Some of you know that I am on a drug called Ambien.  It helps you sleep.  I take it every night because certain problems in my brain prevent me from sleeping.  Anyways, I like to record some of my more interesting conversations with Ron that I have when the Ambien kicks in.  I almost never remember anything about these discussions.  Sometimes, I hate to admit, I get mad at Ron for stupid reasons; but sometimes I apparently am very amusing.  (Not long ago I apparently became angry with Ron because he giggled at me when I said something silly.  I left the room and laid down in the guest room.  Ron found me in there watching Spanish softcore porn on HBO.  I remember NONE of this.)

Last night I apparently told Ron that I would like to check out the library where knickers are optional.  (Wtf?  I never say "knickers!")  I then threw my underwear at him.  When he tried to get me to go to sleep, he asked if I was planning on removing my glasses.  I was convinced that he also needed to remove his, however he wasn't wearing any.  I then groped his face to find his glasses and remarked he didn't seem to actually be wearing them.  He told me they were there, only very thin, and I had just broken them.  "Huh," I said.  Then I rolled onto my back and within seconds, was asleep.

This is why you should NEVER take this drug around someone you don't trust or if you live alone.  Or for god's sakes, don't take it on an overnight plane trip.  You might be arrested for running around naked, insisting that a warning should exist for the water because it induces biscuits on the penis.

Seriously.  All of you should give Ron props for taking care of my goofy ass.

The saga continues

It's been about six months now since I started trying to get off Cymbalta.  Since then my Fibro has become worse.  I've had to start a new drug through a neurologist, I just started physical therapy, and I've had to ask for FMLA leave and ADA accommodations.  I can't talk about things at work because I will likely be fired.  I don't want that!  Maybe when it is all over, I can fill you all in.

My brain is pretty fuzzy lately.  I can't seem to remember things on the short term and I have a hard time concentrating.  Video games are near impossible right now.  I have to take the Cymbalta every three to four days, at the same time I take my normal drug cocktail.  That doesn't feel very good....racing heart, nausea, sweating.  It only lasts a few hours but it's not pretty.  Until I can get off this horrible drug, I'll have to put up with it.

That's about all for my update right now.  Like I said above, I just can't concentrate!

Creativity keeps the Devil at bay

I survived another week of Hell at work.  The harassment has somewhat abated but things have turned into a pretty uncomfortable work environment.  I am trying to get a bunch of medical records together and that is  very time consuming.  I also saw a new doctor yesterday: a neurologist.  She was very nice and talked to me about how Fibromyalgia is a problem with the neuro-receptors in the brain.  The brain processes pain differently and the smallest bit of pain is amplified.  She told me to quit a couple drugs I'm on and try something new.  So here's to hoping I don't react negatively to it.  I'm so damn sensitive to chemicals so I'm sure I'll have at least some side effects.

I've been keeping calm and distracted from work by doing more stitching.  It's been a nice way to keep my sense of humor alive.  Here are my two latest:





I'm going to finally cave and set up an Etsy shop.  More on that later.

I better get going.  We are going to have lunch at the Cinema Suites and watch Transformers 2.  Maybe next weekend we'll get some tickets to Harry Potter.  I'm so geeked!

I leave you with a photo my friend Summer sent me the other day.  It sums up my feelings from the past two weeks PERFECTLY:



Have a good Saturday!